Deb: The Self-Made Writer

I’m a teacher by training, and a writer by – well, that’s what I mean to find out, the proper way to complete that little prepositional phrase.  By fortitude? By delusion? By luck?

Self-madeness (perhaps also self-madness) is embedded in our culture.  Emerson comes to mind, his lovely aphorisms fitting and useful for an adolescent nation struggling to find its legs.  Rugged individualism, striking out on one’s own, up by the bootstraps, that sort of thing.  Emerson extols these virtues as if with a large broom, broad sweeps, stirring dust.  To thine ownself be true!  Foolish consistency, hobgoblin of little minds!  Imitation is suicide!

As it turns out, Emerson never used the term “self-made man,” at least not that I’ve found. Still he managed to make a decent living on the lecture circuit promoting the concept, even as he admitted, “all my best thoughts were stolen by the ancients.”

Originality, yes.  But to what extent is a writer self-made? What of the writer as apprentice, at the feet of the masters, watching and learning?  What of the community of writers, struggling together? 

In a series of posts, one for each week of 2012, I’ll explore the idea of the self-made writer – to what extent it is myth, to what extent it’s not only possible but necessary.  I’ll take up Emerson’s challenge to “study with hope and love the precise thing to be done,” which is, in our case, to write.  Habits, attitudes, community, discovery, craft, even promotion – these we’ll ponder in this series of instructional musings.

You might recall that around this time last year I posted on a related topic, my DIYMFA (Do It Yourself MFA) program.  I explained that while circumstances have kept me from pursuing a formal degree, I wanted to fashion as best I could for myself a program that included as many MFA-type opportunities as I could: meaningful critiques of my work, voracious and systematic reading to enhance the quality of my work, a dynamic community of writers who share my goals.  The ultimate goal of my self-fashioned program is to produce writing that is better, richer, and truer than any I’ve done before.  In eschewing a formal degree program, I of course mean no disrespect to the formal process of schooling.  I’m a teacher by training, remember, and I also think a fair number of Emerson’s sweeping admonitions about striking out on one’s own are hogwash.

My DIYMFA program is now entering year three.  It’s looking like this may be one of those long-term programs.  Five years, six, maybe ten.  A lifetime, even.  The self-made do tend to self-wander.  Of the 45 books on my DIYMFA reading list, I only got through 21 (which means you can still join me in reading if you like).  I finished the novel I began, and it does feel stronger than any of my previous efforts. I also spent a good chunk of 2011 researching a narrative nonfiction project that should go out in proposal later this year – a project that had no place in my DIYMFA plan.  And while I wrote another children’s book, happily accepted for publication in 2013, I stand with Alfred Kazin when he says, “The writer writes in order to teach himself, to understand himself, to satisfy himself; the publishing of his ideas, though it brings gratification, is a curious anticlimax.”